Fall Blessings....

To help celebrate the first day of Autumn, my all time favorite season, I drove up to Santa Barbara to see some dear friends and to visit a place that has a part of my heart. 

Lately, I have been feeling "down" and needed some fresh air to help clear my head. 

The new scenery was of course wonderful and nice. I was able to pray the entire drive and ask the Lord for his blessing and protection. It was a nice day, with an icecream trip at the pier and a wonderful pizza dinner with a few friends. After dinner, we had a tasty desert with icecream and rich chocolate chip cookies. A perfect treat to celebrate fall's new blessings. Today, Wednesday, I went to chapel at Westmont and Ben Patterson talked about riding the rollercoasters of life and

 how important it is to sit snug with Jesus. I was touched by his message and his sweet words. I realized that the reasons I was feeling down were because I was going through a WILD rollercoaster and although, I was sitting in the same boat as Jesus, I was far away from him. I need to be sitting right next to him, as Ben said, "becoming one flesh" with Him. As soon as I put my complete, absolute trust in the Lord, then I will be able to see the rollercoaster from a different perspective.  I needed to hear that from the Lord this morning and he knew I would be listening. A couple weeks ago, our Pastor, spoke about our chikara which is a Japanese word meaning strength and power. When we are weak, God reveals his strength and power. When we are weak, we are made strong in the Lord. Pastor Gary went on to say that when we pray, "Lord, I can not get through ________ ( you fill in the blank) without your help" we become powerful! because we are first admitting our weakness! and that is when the Lord steps in! So ... with that message in mind, I prayed and prayed... LORD help me with this rollercoaster. I CAN NOT GET THROUGH IT WITHOUT YOU! 

and on another note, I had been praying for a job.... praying that God w

ould open the doors for a job that I can flourish in and have his guidance in.... and well I came back from the inspiring chapel ordeal and checked my gmail account and in my inbox was an email from a lady with a wedding company called premiere productions and she has an interview available for me THIS friday. At this job, I would be learning the business of becoming a wedding coordinator and even earning a big girl salary while learning the program!!!! I am so excited!!!! I don't know where this path will lead me but I know if God is in control I can handle ANYTHING!!!!!!

sooo.... keep me in your prayers.... for the LORD's will  to be done in every situation, circumstance, job opening and rollercoaster ride that I will be embarking on! whooo hoo!

 

on another note.... I am excited to count down one year to my wedding. I just keep praying that the Lord will prepare my heart and Geoffrey's. I know the Lord is good and I know that this rollercoaster ride will be interesting. soooo keep me close to you Lord! AMEN!

September

First of all, I can't believe we are more than half way through September already! Geez!

Secondly, I wanted to say that September has a lot of sentimental value for me and I thought it was important for me to share with everyone why....

My parents celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary on September 15th and my grandparents would have celebrated their 55th wedding anniversary today!

As a child, I always wanted to get married in September, (P.s I am wearing my mom's wedding dress in this picture.... I think I was 9years old?)

and I even wanted to get married in 2004..... I know a little over anxious..... but here is why.

My grandma was born in 1935 and my mom born in 1955 then I was born in 1985..... 20 years between my mom and grandma and thirty between my mom and I.

So.... it continues.... my Grandparents got married in 1954 and my parents in 1984.... so naturally, I either wanted to get married in 2004 or 2014 and since I realized that 2014 would be tooooooo far away, I thought 2004 would be just fine! ha That would have put me married right after high school and since my high school crush didn't really work out the way I wanted it to... I knew my 2004 dream was out the window.

Even though, I didn't get married in 2004, I'm not getting married in 2014, and my wedding isn't in September, I still love this month. It will always be special to me and maybe I can start a November tradition with my daughter. :)

Anyway, I just wanted to dedicate a blog to my grandparents and the day that would

have been their 55th wedding anniversary! I love you grandma and miss you very much!

This picture is so special to me!! I actually almost cried when I saw it! My grandma gave my papa this watch as his wedding day present and he has treasured it for 55 years! He always talks so highly of this watch! So sweet! My grandpa is really a wonderful man! He was so in love with my grandma! Gosh how adorable!

And this last picture just melts my heart! They look so happy to start their lives together!

I am so blessed to have them as my grandparents. They leave a wonderful legacy for me to follow.

10:18pm

and I am exhausted.

my hair is a mess.

and my eyes are red.

I haven't done much today, but I am tired.

Today, I did one errand. Today, I walked outside one time. Today, I picked up my Grandma's heart shaped necklace (that I will wear on my wedding day) and I realized that life happens very fast and it can swarm in chaos all around me.

After coming to this, kill my beautiful monday conclusion, I realized that I am not strong enough to deal with it at all.... unless I have Jesus, and I know it sounds so cheesy, but without his help I can not do anything. Dwelling on this took a lot out of me, and I have been emotionally, physically, and spiritually tired all day. sad - because I should have been uplifted at God's mighty grace, but I was not. I know the truth... and I know that he is so much greater than I... but still I am drained. I need to trust and I guess... I needed a day to soak it in.

goodnight.