I just have to add...

this picture makes all the stresses of today better. I will have to tell you the story sometime. We've had a great 2 years filled with moments like this. so so fuN!

I love him! (sigh)

so much emotion

well today has been filled with emotion. gosh.

today is my grandma's birthday. she would have been 74. I kept thinking of buying a box of See's candy because that is something she always enjoyed on her special days.. and well random times through out the week. I really miss her today. It is really strange that she is gone because sometimes I simply think she is in Arizona. She used to go there ALOT and spend weeks there with my papa and queenie. Since my papa is always gone, I just assume they are together and will be home soon. Its so strange that she is not here for her birthday this year!! 

Today is also Geoff and I's two year anniversary. and it has been 5 months since we've been engaged. Crazy! I remember two years ago when we were sitting in my car, and he was proposing all the reasons why I should be his girlfriend. He was so cute and so excited. It was the wee hours of the morning and we had been up all night studying and talking as Westmont was drawing to a close. I was eager to be his girlfriend because all the back and forth stuff was driving me crazy!!! I told him... as your first boyfriend duty, make sure I call my grandma on her birthday! He did remind me ... so sweet. He thought that I was going to tell her about our new relationship status.... but I did not. I dont think that was the kind of present that was on my grandma's wish list. 

Ahhhh anyway... today has been soo crazy. Soooo many assignments due and sooo many crazy partners are trying to get the best of me. I haven't even seen Geoff today. :(  He had a chance to take his EMT pretest. So he missed our lunch and I am at school all night doing a group mid term. so lame! and...  well there are other things bothering me but GOD is in control of those. He is helping me....cause otherwise I would probably be crying as I write this. Uuuugh!!!

Its just been one of those days. But I am so glad that I had this moment to breathe and think of people that I love. (sigh of relief)

Well the moment is over... on to the next task. Group mid-term. you know how fun those can be?! well .... the positive light is that I am filing my Graduation intent on Tuesday and I am almost done with CSULA group projects and dealing with stressful people. 

(BIG SIGH OF RELIEF!)

anyway... I guess thats all. 

pre-pre-pre wedding jitters?

i just had a small panic attack for my wedding.... what colors? will they go well? will our reception place look GREAT!??!? what will my wedding dress look like? will i like my hair? aahhhH!!! i think im thinking way too hard. i just saw a friend's wedding pictures and i see beautiful weddings every weekend... but what if mine doesn't measure up!?!! geesh. 

monkey see... monkey do

I guess It's just one of those days. 

theFAMOUSweekend.

well this weekend was geoffrey's 23rd birthday and we had a famous time. it was so wonderful. i loved spending every moment with my guy. we went to party city and yes i made him try these glasses on but we had a great time. he was so happy. it was very nice to see him all smiles. 





this is probably my favorite picture of us right now. i had such a great time celebrating geoff's birthday. we are pretty gosh darn cute. :)

then on saturday, the 18th geoff and i were hanging out again.. and we decided to change up his room so we went to ikea... and we saw daniel fairday... you know the way sneaky scientist from LOST! yeah!!! i had to work up my gut to talk to him and get a picture but I finally did!! he is such a nice guy!!! then daniel turns to me and says well... my friend here is a famous editor. so i took a picture with him too!!! ha they were both so welcoming of the crazy fan! it was really sweet!! 

then on sunday, rachel invited us to a benefit for autism and it was hosted by the characters from HEROs and yeah guess who we saw?!?!? HIRO!!! The main guy!!! oh gosh it was soo cool. I guess I should start watching the show now huh?

oh yeah and the band that was playing was called "Band from TV" and Mike Delfino from DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES was playing the guitar!! we were so close to him. he is soo sexY!!! 

overall... it was a wonderful weekend. i got to spend it with my sexy fiance and my cute siblings. oh yeah and famous people!!! haha it was fun. very exciting. 

rollercoaster ride

today was ridiculous. 

quite the rollercoaster ride with highs and lows.

ahhhh

 but right now at this moment i hear beautiful birds chirpping and singing to Jesus and well that is the best way to live in this moment right here right now. 

peaceful.....

and in T-minus 30 minutes... ill be on that rollercoaster again

Love and Friendship

Today I went with Grandma Reen to her friend Bib Sailor. 

The two 81 year olds smiled and hugged despite their aching bodies.

The two of them truly understand the words love and friendship.

As I watched them interact, I thought of the relationships I have lost over the years and those that I have maintained, and that is when I realized that in all relationships LIFE HAPPENS.

People die, people get sick, people get busy, but that is when you push past it all and cling on to what matters. Your friendship and your love. The two ladies have had many struggles, husbands died ,they both have fought cancer, they wake up with pain, they have heartaches, and continue to have loss after loss but someway-somehow they come together and are friends. There is someone in the world that understands them. It doesn't matter what has happened in their lives because they have someone to literally hold onto.  I want that. That amazing friendship that stands through the stress of this life, and all the difficulties and pushes through to have a TRUE BLUE love that lasts for 45 years plus!!!