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When it rains, it pours.

Today. October 19, 2010

Mondays. geesh.

Since our engagement, everyone has told me, "Don't sweat the small stuff." Even I have been at fault for telling my friends and clients this ridiculous statement. Well, I guess the statement is not entirely ridiculous. It is true. Brides should relax and not panic when something small creeps up in the last month before the wedding day. Brides should take deep breaths when dealing with all things. They should. It is not what we tend to do.

The desire to plan a perfect wedding with no flaws actually seems like a fausible thing to do. But that is the insanity talking. That is the lack of sleep. That is the desire to please everyone including yourself. Ah! Silly things that take over when you are a bride to be. Honestly, I am a better bridesmaid. I am better at having someone tell me all the little details and try to actively help HER find a remedy. I, being the bride, am awful at asking for help. I just pile everything on my plate and do it. It is hard to have 8 bridesmaids at my disposal (not including countless family and friends) and ask for them to help me in my time of panic. Instead, I go go go until I am too tired and then in my sleep deprivity I cry... or I obsess.
I am telling you it's not a good look on me.

This weekend, I cried on the way to pick up the groomen's bowties. My bottom lip quivered and then tears just streamed from my eyes... and in 10 minutes I was fine. I am not sure why. Geoff looked at me, and said "are you really crying!" after shaking my head and giving him puppy dog eyes, I sheepishly admitted I was. Then in a couple minutes, I was fine. I am not sure what stopped me from crying. and I am not sure what started it all.
This weekend, I swore that ONE rsvp card was missing. ONE. And after twenty minutes of frantically searching, I realized the "card" I thought I saw was the tag on their wedding gift.

Weddings. geez!

Today, was better. No crying. No obsessing. and then a girl at the office shares with our staff that her Cancer has come back.

I don't know how I could EVEN think of freaking out over such small things when SUCH A HUGE AND SAD thing could happen in an instant! I felt so guilty.
Guilty for being so "lucky" to be planning a wedding and have the opportunity to be soo happy but I chose something else. I chose to let my situation get the better of me. :(

Mondays are not for the faint of heart I guess. I am taking this news as a sign...
"DON'T STRESS THE SMALL STUFF!"

With this ring.... I thee wed

I picked up Geoffrey's wedding ring today and as I held the 6 mm white gold wedding band in my hand I got a teennnnssyyyyy weeeeensssssy bit teary eyed. I couldn't believe that "with this ring I thee wed" my best friend... Geoffrey Patrick Arai!

There is so much significance that goes into that little ring, a circle being endless and timeless. Never ending. It will be a symbol to everyone that we are one. That Geoff and I are forever.

My Nana used to always say that the wedding ring is worn on the Left hand and on the third finger because that finger is a direct line to your heart. Geoff's 13.5 Ring finger is his direct connection to his heart and then to me. :) I have had the honor to look at my wedding ring for the last 2 years of our engagement and with the ring, there has been a lot of emotion. Some days, I was so flustered with our relationship, I took my ring off and left it at home. Some days, my heart was so scared about growing up, I would twist it on my hand and pray for us. Most days, I look at it and smile. I like to think that when it sparkles back at me, Geoff is thinking of me.

I am so excited to give him his ring on our wedding day!

I even had it enscribed "Forever mine and Forever Yours" Geoff gave me a beautiful locket for Christmas last year and he enscribed that saying onto my locket. It sits at my chest. Touching my heart all day. I am keeping the ring and the engraving a secret so that he can be surprised. :)

I am so excited to say "with this ring, I thee wed!"

No flash photograhy.

I am completly bummed. :(
I just recieved confirmation from our church coordinator that there is

NO FLASH PHOTOGRAPHY ONCE THE SERVICE HAS STARTED!

:( boo.
The photographer in me is so worried about getting all the shots I want! I hate when I can't shoot with flash. It worries me. What if Bridesmaid X walks too fast and I miss her walking down the aisle? Whenever I go to weddings, and I miss that shot, I always feel safe knowing that the photographer got the shot! But now... our photographers can't use flash! :( I know I shouldn't be worried about such a small detail. THat is for Max and John to worry about, but what if? Photographers aren't cheap! I don't want to be disapointed when my parents are spending that kind of money on a detail that can't be just perfect :(
It just burdened my Monday. Honestly, I was dreading hearing those words, so I wanted to put it off but Mom just had to ask! I am glad she did though, this gives the photographers ample time to pracice their quick shots.
I will have to remind everyone to walllllkkkkk slloooooowwwllllyyyyyy.

do ra me fa so la te do

I love MUSIC. It simply touches my heart. For the wedding I wanted sooo many songs but I just wasn't sure which ones. I KNEW I wanted "The Prayer" by Josh Groban. I knew that I had to find any way possible to have it in our wedding.

I am so blessed to have a cousin who is INCREDIBLY talented!!!! Ashley Zerillo is FANTASTIC! We knew she would do an ammmmmmazing job for our wedding, and since she is a music major at Vanguard University she has an orchestra of people at her fingertips. Sooo here is OUR MUSIC TEAM and OUR SONG!!!! :) I am beeeeyyyyyyoooooooonnnnnnnd exctatic to have this song be a part of the wedding day! Not simply because it SOUNDS amazing but because of the WORDS! AH! I love it! so Sit back and enjoy and get ready

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