remembering

Today I was looking at pictures of grandma bee and I started crying. I really miss her right now. Christmas eve was her day. It was her time to shower us in gifts and cook us a special dinner. it was her time to be with us. this year is going to be so hard because she isn't here.


THe first picture was from josh's high school graduation in 2005. Grandma was so excited that our outfits matched! She made sure we got a picture together!!!

The second picture was of us last year... then we had no idea how sick she really was.

back in the day

it was not common to see us together
we were always at the mall or at pioneers together
but now it is a rare occurrence
now we rarely see one another
but today we are going to breakfast and I could not be more happy!
<3 yay for our reunion

wait this might help...

little things like this make me smile

this is for john charlton.

and for corinna because she will see it.

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few and far

i've realized that good friends are few and far between.

this is an ode to all of them. i appreciate and love you. 

it wouldn't be Christmas without you

well there is a song that says "it wouldn't be Christmas without you" and it always makes me so sad whenever it plays because I think of people in my life who are so important to me and I think of what Christmas would be without them and I just feel so sad inside!!!!! But today as we were hanging ornaments on our tree and that song was playing I felt sad... but then I remembered how it wouldn't be CHRISTmas without CHRIST!!! what would this holiday be like without JESUS? gosh... there wouldn't be anything to celebrate. I know that whatever happens in life... friends come and go.... relationships sadly fade away... family passes on to better places... but the one one thing that will always stay in my life is CHRIST!! I BELIEVE in my Saviour and I BELIEVE that JESUS is coming again and I am a blessed creature to live on this earth and live in his creation. I was feeling sad earlier today.... i was missing my grandma bee and feeling a little overwhelmed by how fast this year has gone by. I was just .... sigh..... a little sad. and i began thinking of how much I have been blessed with. I began thinking of all the wonderful blessings God has done in my life and I realized that with Christ I can get through the holidays..... and everyday. 

This is my favorite ornament this year. We have always had it but this year it makes me smile more than it ever has. I hope one day Geoff and I can be like this. :) what a wonderful thing to look forward to. I hope that we are this blessed as we age. 
Here is our wonderful tree. Mom and Dad added a little after I took the picture, but still this is mostly the finished product. 
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night! I love you all. 

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